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Shen Qingqiu | BLUE | #EBF5FB

• 1/8 | LINK TO THREAD | Wei Wuxian. What a way to meet a fellow cultivator?! He is turned into a frog and kissed to return to being a person. The amount of upset that he feels in his heart is enough to drown a man!

• 1/9 | LINK TO THREAD | Pyra. He arrives at her door to feed her a poisoned apple, and with some finagling, they avoid a poisoning! The two come to talk about the importance of kindness and wishing to give it back to the world. There is a lot of guilt that he feels when she speaks so positively about immortality and how he teaches others to achieve it, but in the end, he is touched by her warm sentiments since she seems to feel as fondly to his disciples as he feels towards them.

• 1/9 | LINK TO THREAD | Xie Lian. He meets who he assumes to be a young bride in the well. His mind goes spinning and he worries about what kind of life that she must have had before coming here.

• 1/9 | LINK TO THREAD | Berkut. Meeting up with fairytales-mixing, the two escape the scene relatively unscathed. Shen Qingqiu comes to realize that Berkut is the cannon-fodder villain of his own story, and wants to do everything he can to prevent the destructive end he can see coming! His anxiety flies off the charts before realizing that he can't "save" Berkut in a day.

• 1/9 | LINK TO THREAD | Jim Lake Jr. He runs into Jim while being teleported around, forced to feed poisoned apples to people. Shen Qingqiu comes up with the idea of just burying the apples in an area by the forest so that they aren't dug up and eaten. As they walk and talk, Jim tells him that he's a Trollhunter and how it's strained the relationship with his mother. Shen Qingqiu insists he be honest with his mother. Learning more about what a Trollhunter is, only makes Shen Qingqiu FURIOUS at the way such a task has been handled. The two cool down and go back to walking. At least until Jim starts asking a lot of questions involving possession and the teacher is once more pissed at the Council for forcing a teenager into this position!

• 1/18 (set 1/14) | LINK TO THREAD | Akashi Kaoru. On his first network post, Shen Qingqiu is a disaster that is still feeling guilty about what happened with Luo Binghe. He had been forced to push his disciple down into the Endless Abyss and decided (subconsciously/consciously) to put himself on blast about it. This touches a lot of issues that Kaoru has suffered. She wants to know why he couldn't tell him and he explains -- he knows Luo Binghe would have sacrificed himself for him and would rather be the villain than have his disciple be a martyr. He becomes upset for her sake in hearing her sad story. They have a quiet moment that ends up ruined because there is still a hole in the wall. The two go look for a rock and Shen Qingqiu fondly reminisces about Liu Qingge. Of course, as happy as he seems and how at ease he seems, he isn't -- it's all dressing to hide his real sorrow and regret.

• 1/19 | LINK TO THREAD | Berkut. While hallucinating under the curse, he sees Berkut as his young disciple Luo Binghe. He begins to attempt to lie to him to protect him from a painful future until Berkut alerts him to who he is. With some coaxing, he is convinces the prince to let him come along to find the source of the vines. He tries to convince Berkut to run if it seems he will lose, in an attempt to save the prince from his foretold tragic villain end. The two have a friendly chat as Shen Qingqiu is attempting to ignore voices and images; though he ends up getting a poor opinion of Berkut's uncle in the process. Unfortunately, the hallucinations get to him and he has to return to the start of the forest. He doesn't believe he can make it, and is grateful for Berkut's offering to walk him back. Only it ends with him thinking the prince hates him.

• 1/19 | LINK TO THREAD | Wei Wuxian, Xie Lian. In the final stages of the curse, he ends up becoming more and more lethargic and collapses in the street where he is found. There is a lot of panic and anxiety and general upset about how he is being handled!! He doesn't think he has any face left to show to either one of them! He also is upset for having upset them in the first place! It gets worse when Wei Wuxian suggets Xie Lian kiss him. And it only gets worse when he thinks there is a suggestion he has sex with one of them in order to free him of the curse. It ends with hearing the two of them spout off a lot of death-flag sentences and him not wanting them to die so refusing to say anything as they depart.

• 1/18 (timeline, set after he's cured from his curse) | LINK TO THREAD | Pyra. He happens to run into her when he comes to the castle to seek out the source of the curse rather than a cure. And he becomes honestly upset when she is willing to sacrifice herself. He is even willing to become her shield so she needn't take anymore damage for him. Honestly laments his poor luck and thinks that everything is attempting to punish him. He feels so guilty being in her presence and finds her to be a saint that's been tricked by him, somehow! When she tells him the story of a sword that can change destiny, he won't erase what he has done, and why he won't tell anyone he's transmigrated, because it is an escape from his sins. Pyra hugs him and doesn't wish to lose him, which surprises him. He's comforted as he is temporarily ruined by the hug; feeling the weight of everything and crying about things for once (he wants to live/he deserves to die; he's worked so hard/he's done so at the cost of another's life and happiness, so much is double-talk and finally he cries about how he couldn't do anything). The two once again promise to watch over each other. Afterward, they talk about love an immortality, and he thinks she's in love with an immortal and wishing her the best. Important things must be said three times. "It will be nice." Even if he can't believe in a positive future, it will be nice if it was possible.

• 1/24 (set 1/23) | LINK TO THREAD | Renne Hayworth, Percy Jackson, Rin Okumura, Choubee Aza, Sierra Mikain. Upon hearing Renne putting Berkut on blast, he cannot help but feel this is a destruction flag rearing its ugly head! The flag that signals a villain's ruined reputation. And immediately springs to fix those with the poorest view of Berkut. Sierra outright roasts him but relents, so he considers that a win. Percy Jackson backed down easily enough but it ended in Shen Qingqiu giving himself a death flag. Choubee was the least likely to backdown but seemed to shift his attention to Shen Qingqiu instead; Shen Qingqiu thinks of him as a disaster class villain or high quality internet troll and he may die due to his meddling. He talked it out with Rin Okumura to not be so violent towards Berkut and they both agree that he needs to calm his tits. But Shen Qingqiu's thoughts on Rin completely change in hearing that he's half-demon, and immediately stans him!

• 2/9 | LINK TO THREAD | Pyra. She had ended up touching him and falling into his heart. There she was able to see the future that he most feared which was him being cut into a human stick by the person that he had betrayed -- Luo Binghe. The System tried to convince her to abandon him, to revile him repeatedly, but she refused. Shen Qingqiu eventually appeared before her where the two of them had a serious discussion about his "villainous ways." He promised her in the end that he would do more to look after himself, unable to stand the thought of her suffering to keep him safe.

• 2/9 | LINK TO THREAD | Wei Wuxian. Like Pyra, Wei Wuxian also fell into Shen Qingqiu's heart. He did not see the horrific future that awaits him, but went to speak to Luo Binghe -- the embodiment of Shen Qingqiu's guilt. Wei Wuxian was able to force Shen Qingqiu to appear by threatening to break his fan (gasp!). The two of them have a long discussion where Shen Qingqiu states that he would sacrifice himself for Luo Binghe. Unhappy with that decision, Wei Wuxian takes on Luo Binghe's appearance and forces Shen Qingqiu to forgive himself.

• 2/9 | LINK TO THREAD | Akashi Kaoru. She had ended up in his heart and was swallowed up by icy waters. The System tried to tell her what an awful person that he was, but she denied it by explaining the type of awful adults that she had encountered. Shen Qingqiu couldn't let that sort of thing go and broke through the dimensional rift that kept him separated from her -- so that he could hug her. He couldn't stand the thought that she had gone through all of that, even if she said she was all right now. He had told her that he didn't want to cause her any trouble and that was why he wanted her to denounce him, but seeing her look so beaten, he couldn't do it. Instead, he lead her out of his heart the same way he had with everyone else.

• 2/9 | LINK TO THREAD | Shiho Sannomiya. Another poor sap that fell into his heart. But different from all the others, she argued with the System rather than tried to work with it. Shen Qingqiu felt a spike of fear hit him that something awful would happen to her if she kept arguing with his heart and actually broke through the dimensional space that separated him from her. The two of them had a bit of an argument as he yelled at her -- fearful as to what would have happened and reacting out of anger first. But he was able to lead her out of his heart the same way that he had with everyone else, by promising to take better care of himself.

• 2/10 | LINK TO THREAD | Tristan. Fell into his heart. The two of them have a discussion about what evil actions truly are. Tristan admits to having been a villainous person, as well. However, Shen Qingqiu cannot accept that sort of answer because he finds the young man to be exceptionally kind and good. He states that he thinks that Tristan had merely gotten lost along the way and that Tristan's father must still be proud of him. Yes, he did suddenly feel very paternal towards the Servant and going to be adopting him as one of his many children!

• 2/23 | LINK TO THREAD | Wei Wuxian. The de-colored Wei Wuxian is in trouble! Rather, Shen Qingqiu came to check up on his fellow cultivator to find him without color and without any drive to do anything. It was more than a little upsetting to see, and he had no idea what could have caused it. However, what he did know was that he needed to be taken care of, so he dragged him to the bathhouse. During the walk there, Shen Qingqiu tried to return some color to Wei Wuxian by singing anime songs (don't judge him!). There was a lot of panic-related situations that dealt with being naked and heavenly pillars. A lot of panic and his mind going blank! Why did this happen?! He was only trying to help -- and he will never speak of it, again!!

• 3/2 | LINK TO THREAD | Pyra. The two of them go out to look at the stars with one another. They discuss how neither one of them had a chance to really appreciate the sights back home, but now coming to love being able to share moments like this with others. It builds up to the two of them deciding on a constellation for their close friends (Wei Wuxian, Xie Lian, Pyra, and himself). He wants to be able to say that even if something should separate them that they are still with each other in the stars. The two also talk about how he has changed since the promises he made to care about himself more.

• 3/4 | LINK TO THREAD | Berkut. Shen Qingqiu convinces Berkut to throw him into the harbor waters. It did not take much. It was an awful experience. But the two of them were able to have a nice chat as they walked together -- Berkut headed back home and Shen Qingqiu headed to the bathhouse. They talked about what strength really meant and what it was to be strong. Shen Qingqiu ends the talk with still being uncertain as to what real strength is, but Berkut says that he looks forward to seeing what he eventually comes up with. Friendship!

• 7/28-8/30 | LINK TO THREAD | Tristan. He's terrified about turning into a tree, about Archer not being able to escape, and many other things. But he soldiers on until he actually starts changing and trying to convince Archer to live. When Archer says that he won't, he erupts into anger! Very angry! Who does he think that he is?!

• 8/4 | LINK TO THREAD | Somnus. Shen Qingqiu is filled with absolute fear of Luo Binghe and went to try to live in the castle. Somnus comes and the two of them have an argument about Ardyn. Shen Qingqiu does not believe that all is lost with the BIG BOSS VILLAIN and angry about Somnus that might blacken the man. He's filled with righteous fury for someone else for once!

• 8/4 | <a href="https://awashlogs.dreamwidth.org/122636.html?thread=33687564#cmt33687564>LINK TO THREAD</a> | <b>Chu Wanning</b>. Shen Qingqiu comes back to the town de-colored, but slowly regains his color thanks to talking to Chu Wanning. He comes to see that the man is really PINK and finds that honestly adorable and it eases some of the magnitude of fears that he's been suffering from.</font>