[ He immediately turns away at the comment of flowers. No, no. I suddenly have amnesia! What flowers? Where and when and how? Please could you pin down the date for me and the hour? I'm afraid I wasn't there at all! In fact, I don't believe I was even on this plane of existence. So sorry!
And really!! Bringing up flower talk!! Neither one of them was in the right set of mind!! Obviously! Obviously! People liking him and calling him selfless. Please! He's just trying to live! He's really just focused on ensuring his life goes on. That means making good relations with people.
Shen Qingqiu can feel him backsliding back. He can feel himself doing it. He feels like he reached the top of a hill for himself and is falling backwards out of fear and guilt. Because he isn't sure he can drag himself forward -- isn't sure if it's right to pull himself forward anymore.
The idea of looking at Luo Binghe as an adult -- to think back of when he would look fondly at him when he was his disciple -- is painful. He took away precious years and happiness.
Also, right, right. Compliment battle. He is happy that Wei Wuxian is laughing so loud as it disrupts his thoughts and keeps him from continuing to fall backwards into bad, bad habits of his. Like swalloing a mouthful of blood. How long has it been since he's done that? It feels like months ... ]
I ...
[ Should he say it!! Should he just outright admit that he's scared?! Admit something like that to someone that he wants to look after?! Doesn't that kind of disrupt the flow of everything?! ]
You will like Luo Binghe much more than this teacher. In fact, I would like it if you were to treat him well.
[ That came from left field! LEFT FIELD! He should have commented on anything that Wei Wuxian said. He should have gotten annoyed and smacked him with his fan. But his emotions are as they are! They're a mess!! A horrible mess!! So he says something so suddenly that makes it sound like he's having a whole separate conversation.
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Date: 2019-07-31 05:54 pm (UTC)And really!! Bringing up flower talk!! Neither one of them was in the right set of mind!! Obviously! Obviously! People liking him and calling him selfless. Please! He's just trying to live! He's really just focused on ensuring his life goes on. That means making good relations with people.
Shen Qingqiu can feel him backsliding back. He can feel himself doing it. He feels like he reached the top of a hill for himself and is falling backwards out of fear and guilt. Because he isn't sure he can drag himself forward -- isn't sure if it's right to pull himself forward anymore.
The idea of looking at Luo Binghe as an adult -- to think back of when he would look fondly at him when he was his disciple -- is painful. He took away precious years and happiness.
Also, right, right. Compliment battle. He is happy that Wei Wuxian is laughing so loud as it disrupts his thoughts and keeps him from continuing to fall backwards into bad, bad habits of his. Like swalloing a mouthful of blood. How long has it been since he's done that? It feels like months ... ]
I ...
[ Should he say it!! Should he just outright admit that he's scared?! Admit something like that to someone that he wants to look after?! Doesn't that kind of disrupt the flow of everything?! ]
You will like Luo Binghe much more than this teacher. In fact, I would like it if you were to treat him well.
[ That came from left field! LEFT FIELD! He should have commented on anything that Wei Wuxian said. He should have gotten annoyed and smacked him with his fan. But his emotions are as they are! They're a mess!! A horrible mess!! So he says something so suddenly that makes it sound like he's having a whole separate conversation.
Amazing!! ]