[ He immediately turns away at the comment of flowers. No, no. I suddenly have amnesia! What flowers? Where and when and how? Please could you pin down the date for me and the hour? I'm afraid I wasn't there at all! In fact, I don't believe I was even on this plane of existence. So sorry!
And really!! Bringing up flower talk!! Neither one of them was in the right set of mind!! Obviously! Obviously! People liking him and calling him selfless. Please! He's just trying to live! He's really just focused on ensuring his life goes on. That means making good relations with people.
Shen Qingqiu can feel him backsliding back. He can feel himself doing it. He feels like he reached the top of a hill for himself and is falling backwards out of fear and guilt. Because he isn't sure he can drag himself forward -- isn't sure if it's right to pull himself forward anymore.
The idea of looking at Luo Binghe as an adult -- to think back of when he would look fondly at him when he was his disciple -- is painful. He took away precious years and happiness.
Also, right, right. Compliment battle. He is happy that Wei Wuxian is laughing so loud as it disrupts his thoughts and keeps him from continuing to fall backwards into bad, bad habits of his. Like swalloing a mouthful of blood. How long has it been since he's done that? It feels like months ... ]
I ...
[ Should he say it!! Should he just outright admit that he's scared?! Admit something like that to someone that he wants to look after?! Doesn't that kind of disrupt the flow of everything?! ]
You will like Luo Binghe much more than this teacher. In fact, I would like it if you were to treat him well.
[ That came from left field! LEFT FIELD! He should have commented on anything that Wei Wuxian said. He should have gotten annoyed and smacked him with his fan. But his emotions are as they are! They're a mess!! A horrible mess!! So he says something so suddenly that makes it sound like he's having a whole separate conversation.
[ "You will like Luo Binghe much more than this teacher," where did that come from? He's speechless for a moment; and then, recalling the experience he'd had in the man's heart, he murmurs: ]
You love him.
[ He pauses, his gaze complicated. After a while, he says: ]
You should tell him that. If... something happens, and he finds out afterwards how you feel...
[ Discovering Lan Zhan wasn't his enemy, after their fight at the Nightless City; that was a difficult thing to find out at the time. What if he'd managed to injure or kill Lan Zhan back then? How would he have felt? It was bad enough that Lan Zhan had suffered such punishment, but if he'd been the one to hurt the man directly, then...
[ Love?! Please!! That is way too pink a word! I love him as a protagonist! Obviously. He's one of my favorites. And as my sweet little white sheep. But the adult... I have far too many complicated feelings!
He struggles for a second before saying: ]
I don't believe hearing something like that from me... would mean much.
[ Honestly, he doesn't understand how Wei Wuxian thinks this is going to go so well. A person that stabbed and shoved his disciple off into the Abyss! How could he possibly suddenly say something kind like, "I love you." What sort of scenario is everyone painting in their heads?!
I get it, I get it! They have fond feelings of Luo Binghe and believe him to be a merciful individual. It's the power of the protagonist. Once he's present, everyone thinks -- wait, but Wifi said that Luo Binghe would be hated by others if I'm hurt?! He's starting to talk himself into circles. It's been a long time since he's feel like this. ]
This teacher will do his best. Please don't worry too much about it... hating him is also impossible. So, I'll tell you now to give up on that, if you two should end up at odds.
[ Wei Wuxian is going to be the one with egg on his face when he realizes that he can't hate Luo Binghe! He'll definitely regret thinking he could just because Shen Qingqiu might end up in a shitty position! Really!! He'll realize he's being silly and become bosom buddies with Luo Binghe. So, it's best to save him that embarrassment now! ]
[ There are a lot of things wrong with all this! ]
First of all: whether or not your feelings will mean much or not, is up to him. Whether you believe that or not, is up to you. But he deserves to know, and you owe it to him, to tell him!
Second, I don't care how amiable someone is. If they hurt my friend, I won't like them!
Shen Qingqiu hates the idea that his very life is in someone else's hands. It really puts a bad taste in his mouth! It's been like this for a long time, but it never stops feeling unfair! But he shouldn't have the feeling that it is unfair since he's the one who did it.
Circular thinking. He really is riling himself up... ]
Yes, yes. But if the situation were different, you would not have come to like me at all, then, ah? [ If Luo Binghe had come here first. ]
If the situation were different... what, if I'd met him first?
[ He thinks about that for a moment. If he'd met Luo Binghe first, and had heard about his being pushed into the Endless Abyss by his master...
He frowns. ]
I might have looked at you differently, when you first appeared. I might not have interfered with his revenge. But the situation isn't different, it is what it is, and I have my own reasons to defend you.
[ He rests his hands down firmly on Wei Wuxian's shoulders. ]
-- you must not act on them! Luo Binghe is someone that is exceptionally strong. [ If Liu Qingge were here, he would feel okay with hiding behind him, but he doesn't feel good about doing so with someone that is his junior, okay?! It's the quickest way to get a death flag and die!! ]
[ When Shen Qingqiu's hands touch his shoulders, it arrests his thoughts for a few long moments. He'd thought about directly confronting the man, but it's clear: Luo Binghe is obviously someone Shen Qingqiu cares about. But he himself, is someone the man cares about as well. Despite his own natural impulses, he knows that putting himself in harm's way is directly unpleasant to the person he'd be doing it for.
So, with a sigh, he looks up into Shen Qingqiu's eyes and puts on a smile and says: ]
I won't fight with him. Nothing's going to happen to anybody. I promise. You don't have to worry.
[ Wei Wuxian backed down rather quickly. It makes him a little nervous but the smile puts his heart a little at ease. It's good that he won't do anything -- if anything is done, the person who will be regretting it is the person who started it! Luo Binghe is the real and true protagonist in every sense of the word, after all! ]
... then, I will not worry. [ Sadly, his expression doesn't quite show that resolve. ]
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Then you challenged me to a compliment battle hahahahahahahahaahahahaha!
[ Yeah he's gonna be laughing for a while. ]
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And really!! Bringing up flower talk!! Neither one of them was in the right set of mind!! Obviously! Obviously! People liking him and calling him selfless. Please! He's just trying to live! He's really just focused on ensuring his life goes on. That means making good relations with people.
Shen Qingqiu can feel him backsliding back. He can feel himself doing it. He feels like he reached the top of a hill for himself and is falling backwards out of fear and guilt. Because he isn't sure he can drag himself forward -- isn't sure if it's right to pull himself forward anymore.
The idea of looking at Luo Binghe as an adult -- to think back of when he would look fondly at him when he was his disciple -- is painful. He took away precious years and happiness.
Also, right, right. Compliment battle. He is happy that Wei Wuxian is laughing so loud as it disrupts his thoughts and keeps him from continuing to fall backwards into bad, bad habits of his. Like swalloing a mouthful of blood. How long has it been since he's done that? It feels like months ... ]
I ...
[ Should he say it!! Should he just outright admit that he's scared?! Admit something like that to someone that he wants to look after?! Doesn't that kind of disrupt the flow of everything?! ]
You will like Luo Binghe much more than this teacher. In fact, I would like it if you were to treat him well.
[ That came from left field! LEFT FIELD! He should have commented on anything that Wei Wuxian said. He should have gotten annoyed and smacked him with his fan. But his emotions are as they are! They're a mess!! A horrible mess!! So he says something so suddenly that makes it sound like he's having a whole separate conversation.
Amazing!! ]
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You love him.
[ He pauses, his gaze complicated. After a while, he says: ]
You should tell him that. If... something happens, and he finds out afterwards how you feel...
[ Discovering Lan Zhan wasn't his enemy, after their fight at the Nightless City; that was a difficult thing to find out at the time. What if he'd managed to injure or kill Lan Zhan back then? How would he have felt? It was bad enough that Lan Zhan had suffered such punishment, but if he'd been the one to hurt the man directly, then...
He shakes his head. ]
That won't make him happy.
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He struggles for a second before saying: ]
I don't believe hearing something like that from me... would mean much.
[ Honestly, he doesn't understand how Wei Wuxian thinks this is going to go so well. A person that stabbed and shoved his disciple off into the Abyss! How could he possibly suddenly say something kind like, "I love you." What sort of scenario is everyone painting in their heads?!
I get it, I get it! They have fond feelings of Luo Binghe and believe him to be a merciful individual. It's the power of the protagonist. Once he's present, everyone thinks -- wait, but Wifi said that Luo Binghe would be hated by others if I'm hurt?! He's starting to talk himself into circles. It's been a long time since he's feel like this. ]
This teacher will do his best. Please don't worry too much about it... hating him is also impossible. So, I'll tell you now to give up on that, if you two should end up at odds.
[ Wei Wuxian is going to be the one with egg on his face when he realizes that he can't hate Luo Binghe! He'll definitely regret thinking he could just because Shen Qingqiu might end up in a shitty position! Really!! He'll realize he's being silly and become bosom buddies with Luo Binghe. So, it's best to save him that embarrassment now! ]
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First of all: whether or not your feelings will mean much or not, is up to him. Whether you believe that or not, is up to you. But he deserves to know, and you owe it to him, to tell him!
Second, I don't care how amiable someone is. If they hurt my friend, I won't like them!
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Shen Qingqiu hates the idea that his very life is in someone else's hands. It really puts a bad taste in his mouth! It's been like this for a long time, but it never stops feeling unfair! But he shouldn't have the feeling that it is unfair since he's the one who did it.
Circular thinking. He really is riling himself up... ]
Yes, yes. But if the situation were different, you would not have come to like me at all, then, ah? [ If Luo Binghe had come here first. ]
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[ He thinks about that for a moment. If he'd met Luo Binghe first, and had heard about his being pushed into the Endless Abyss by his master...
He frowns. ]
I might have looked at you differently, when you first appeared. I might not have interfered with his revenge. But the situation isn't different, it is what it is, and I have my own reasons to defend you.
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[ He rests his hands down firmly on Wei Wuxian's shoulders. ]
-- you must not act on them! Luo Binghe is someone that is exceptionally strong. [ If Liu Qingge were here, he would feel okay with hiding behind him, but he doesn't feel good about doing so with someone that is his junior, okay?! It's the quickest way to get a death flag and die!! ]
I do not want anything to happen to you!
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So, with a sigh, he looks up into Shen Qingqiu's eyes and puts on a smile and says: ]
I won't fight with him. Nothing's going to happen to anybody. I promise. You don't have to worry.
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... then, I will not worry. [ Sadly, his expression doesn't quite show that resolve. ]
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But all of that is on one condition: if you feel you're in danger, or if anything happens, you'll ask for help.